Are you medicated?

Thanks, Troy. this is all becoming an unpleasant trip. My shrink does not return calls about my meds so I have just stopped taking them.

adderall is a more complex 'cocktail' of amphetamine constituents than ritalin, so it's smoother on purpose ... ritalin is old science/old chemistry ...

<If you are having problems with anxiety from ritalin, I think you will likely have anxiety problems with most ADD medications >

ritalin sucks the big one. it's worse than all the rest.

both adderall and strattera incapacitated me... so i couldn't leave the house, i just wanted to hide under a blanket.

i've been taking wellbutrin though, and that seems to work pretty well. i don't think it hits the same neurotransmitters.

Hi Troy, Thanks for your suggestions.

Actually, it's not a clear cut generalization as to which is better. Of course it depends on the job. I've not had problems with managers per se, just with managing. And when you're self-employed, there are far more things to manage than just the work. I've had many jobs that were OK, and far less stressful than being self-employed. The issue for me is more about desiring to assert my creativity in all aspects of my life, making more $ (theoretically) and being flexible with my time, so that my life isn't entirely about earning money (there are *lots* of things I like to do that don't earn my any $). The flexible time element however, can be a liability if I am unable to manage my time and all the various things I'm attempting to do.

Meds help in the short run, but in the long run it is not a good thing for me. I'm more focused on a nutritional approach and natural remedies -- another project to manage though, I "forget" to follow through with things like that which help me. I could remember to take only one pill, but still, that just isn't a viable option for me.

And likewise, getting someone to help me isn't something I have resources for (i.e. a coach) -- currently. It would be great to do that, but at the moment I'm more interested in helping myself to help myself, if you will :-)

I just downloaded the DaVinci Book that was recommended in another post in this tribe. That is the kind of inspiration I'm looking for right now, to help me focus on the fact that I need to focus! -- on specific things, and not just over-focus on a few :-) I'd like to have "systems" in place to manage my life -- and this has been a challenge previously because I've moved so many times -- now I'm more settled and looking to create some structure. So having a reference like this gives me a reason to put some attention there. Haven't started reading yet, but I'll let you all know if it is a help to me.

Thanks again.
Az

Thansk, Troy. I feel like I have my life back!

what fixed it?